Morning After

I survived !!! Ok so i may be a bit over dramatic if i said i thought i would have died or evaporated into thin air during yesterday's meeting. Let me recount the whole ordeal first.

First i thought 6 hours to prepare would be more than enough right? Summore Boss K was so nice to sit down n write key points to note and all the night before. So the first 3 hours of the day was ok till i got a bunch of reports to run and fit it into the ppt. Plus i only practiced like 69 times, i am so not prepared. Maybe another 10 times and I'll finally remember my cues and facts and boring data that nobody but only the client wants to know. Lack of time + still running a long report + stress + nervous + unprepared = Hoover Dam broke :( What more embarrassing then i couldn't retain it in. I was trapped in the same car as Boss K and Big Rascal. *sigh* My acting skills was so bad that they know but hey, that was my least of my concern. I was thinking "Shit Shit Shit !! I sure got no time to practice d". Well anyway as much as i was annoyed with Boss K for dumping the last min reports to fit into the ppt, we were really pressed for time and she's just trying to make the ppt as complete as possible so client won't have any reason to screw us. She offered to present but i said i will try. After thinking and thinking and sitting in a room filled with big bosses from client and agencies, i chicken out *hehe*. Some parts Boss K were not very familiar cos I did those runs and it's those boring stuff i mentioned earlier (stuff that no one but the client only wants to know). So i told her i will do that part, but the rest is her :) Ok deal what.... i am still presenting but just a small part of it. I know i have to face my fears..... hopefully i will be better, stronger, tougher and more confidence the next time.

The weekend is almost here am I'm going back home(town). Things i am planning to do : sleep sleep sleep, go exercise (evening walk with dad) and maybe go down to Muar for lunch? We'll see how many things i can achieve in the end.

Have a great weekend... XoXo

The First Cut Is The Deepest

This is indeed the deepest and therefore will be leaving one of the biggest mark in my life.... my first serious attempt at documenting my thoughts, ramblings, feelings, frustrations or simply a place to speak my mind and blow off some steam. I wonder if i should import my old entries from my previous blog or have a clean start? Still thinking.....maybe I'll go explore the import thingy later and see if it's possible, then I'll decide?? It took me a week to settle with this alias. Hoping to remain anonymous all the way but I'm sure some ppl around me *yes I'm referring to u* and good friends know who am i. Just for laughs, amongst some of the screen names i was playing around was : Wonder Woman, WWWoman (stands for whoopsie wonder woman), Maybe Baby and ......


Anyway I've decided.... i shall end all of my entries with a song. It may be a song playing in my mind or maybe a song that sings about all the things i really wanna say. Have you ever felt like somehow those singer/song writer happen to produce/write/sing the song that describes your current state of mind/feelings at the exact moment? For instance, right now.... when you feel like giving up on somebody and falling for that somebody was an unexpected thing. Thus the song - Knock You Down by Keri Hilson. I think the part where she sings : "Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down, just get back up when it knocks you down" is so spot on or "I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did". So am i suppose to get back up and continue to chase pavements ?? I think a week ago, i was looping Chasing Pavements by Adele. Self doubting if i should give up or keep going after something that is 99.9% most probably not happen? No expectations, no regrets..... easier said than done. I tell my friends this but i can't seem to make myself do it.


*almost lost my entry... cos the Internet f*ucked up* I can't remember what else i wrote but anyway I'm going to post it now. Will post other ramblings after my big act at 4.30pm. Wish me luck !!